Not a Wink

In Brain Farts, The Life of Paul by Paul MacklinLeave a Comment

When people decide that they need to change their habits, whether for New Years or otherwise, there are several reasons that they may fail. I think the majority of resolutions fail because they are 11th-hour decisions. Fleeting desires to change, made on a poorly-considered whim. 

There are other reasons of course. The main reason I fail is that I bite off more than I can chew. No matter how long and how much I plan and plan and plan, I fail. Because there is too much for me to accomplish on a day to day basis. Perhaps time-management should be on my list of improvements for next time.

One Week In

We’re one week into the year now and I’d like to quickly take stock.

It’s easy to let the year get away from you. In the past January has turned to September before I’ve had so much as the chance to think about it. I intended for this year to be different. I’m trying to keep track of my money and of my productivity, that way I can have a realistic idea of what I’ve actually done.

A lot of the time I feel like I’m not doing enough. But in reality, I get home from work and I sit down to work some more. I’ll either sit down at my laptop to do some writing or some graphic design, or I’ll head out to rehearse a play. I don’t stop. I don’t give myself that opportunity. But I still find it difficult to quantify my productivity.

In the first three days of this year, I wrote more than all of last year. I should be happy with that – it’s an improvement. But what I didn’t consider is that, whilst I was high on the productivity burst of the New Year, is that I might burn out.

Not a Wink

In my first few days, I didn’t really sleep. I got SO much done that I told myself that this was a great new status quo. That this was how I’d tackle the year. That this was possible. I clearly forgot that one of my other long-term improvements was to look after myself.

The thing is, I DO have a lot to do. I have a lot I want to accomplish and, if I want to be in a better position by the end of the year, a lot I NEED to accomplish. But I also need to temper myself. Acknowledge that I’m not indestructible.

Now, after a week of very little sleep, I’m on the downward spiral. Less productivity, lower mood. It’s going to be hard climb out of this little dip, but If I can bring myself up and steady my pace, I will be in a better position to continue my improved productivity.

Push On

When you first stumble at changing habits, it is easy to give up and give way to old habits. It’s much harder to push on and change. And that is just what I intend to do.

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